You go through life, meeting lots of people. They become your friends and then you move or they move. Then the whole cycle starts again.
I wonder how many of the people I consider my friends are actually my friends?
They are there with you, they say that they love you. But do they really? I wish there was a test or a sensor or something that will show the true thoughts of people around you.
Am I the only one who has problems with friends sort of ….leaving? A couple of my best friends from the start of uni seem suddenly too busy to even meet me. Don’t get me wrong, I do have close friends as well, who I have the fortune of constantly annoying. In a good way, of course. But some of the people I really thought were friends for life, are now just distant. We don’t have lectures together and now we are not friends? What even is that?
The reason for my…I don’t even know what to call it! A sense of betrayal, shall we say, is that three people I considered some of my closest friends are being so weird with me. One of my friends from back home, lets say A, talks to my friends here (who she doesn’t even know), and doesn’t tell me, not even when I ask. My friends here make fun of A for reaching out to them. They respond because of courtesy but really, they are laughing at A’s stupidity!
What am I to do? Side with A even if she doesn’t say she’s connecting with my friends here who she doesn’t know? Or side with my other friends here who laugh at my friends from home and maybe even laugh at me behind my back? If they can’t respect my other friends, have they ever respected me?
See, wish there was a sensor to see what people truly feel.
Am I the gullible idiot? Am I the loser here? 😦